simple, starving to be safe

hello everyone!

so ive been neglecting blogger these days. why? cos im all swamped and engaged with exams!! ive been up and runnin on twitter and facebook though, i think those are actually the utmost things my brainpower could prop up with haha.

so whats up with me?

i have three literature papers left then im free. just another week to freedom, yes 7 days. i cant wait till my exams are over! too many things to update actually but i dont really have much time now cos my next paper is tmw. so im just gna sum up what i did tday. because i think, today is THE MOST PRODUCTIVE DAY EVER, okay over, well, one of the most productive days lah haha. i woke up enthusiastically this morning with 'simple, starving to be safe' in my head (yes, i tend to hear songs in my head) so i kinda hummed to it. okay so thats not it haha, the point is, it just hit me that songs could actually affect your everyday life.

and then, i spent around 3 hours on julius caesar. for the first time in my life, 3 hours of non stop studying! then after lunch, i studied a view from the bridge. so i had my shower, convinced that it was still around 3 o'clock. then after shower, to my greatest shock, it was actually 5 o'clock!!! so that means i studied for like more than 3 hours!!! so thats the good part right there, and the bad part's i had to take another shower after my jog whichs gna be only 2 hours after my initial shower. what a bummer.

thats it for tonight, wna soldier on with my 'productive day' and make today the most productive ever! word. ill try to blog more often after my exams are over. byez!

a new perspective.

its been forever since i last updated this blog! haha. at times, life gets so busy that you forget to do the weeny things, u know? a lot of things come about in my life constantly. i.. i seriously forgot how to blog now. i cant think properly :S

anyway... im really psyched abt the coming long holiday which is gna be in less than 2 months time. of course i have to go through the exam first. ive been studying so hard for socio A2, i dont know if im doing it the right way but im seriously engaged with socio now. everywhere i go i think about socio. everything i do i think about socio. when are we getting married socio? :p

my brother just left for UK for further studies last week. i have no one to bug now, i have no one to um.. play nipple cripple with now haha. we always caught each other off guard and our reactions were always priceless that was the best part haha. oh yeah, my mums not here too she went along with brother to help him out with the registration and etc. shes gna be back in 3 weeks time. im currently staying here with my dad, annoying little sister and my ferocious but the best maid ever haha.

im lacking of ideas now. there are a lot more but i just cant type it out her now. i dont know why prolly because of the long breather from blogging haha. so i guess thats it for now.

oh yeah id like to wish everyone selamat hari raya. sorry if i did anything wrong. wish all of u many joyous and prosperous days ahead.



bye :)

id give anything to hear half your breath

you know, one of the hardest parts of living is, losing someone you love. its really a heart breaking experience, i cant even put it in words, especially when ur there lookin at them battling until the last breath. it touches us in a lot of ways, yet until we experience the demise of someone u love, you dont fully understand how it could touch your life.

my granma passed away last tuesday (16/6). i didnt expect shed be gone anytime soon, i mean, wat i knew was it wasnt a serious ailment. it was.. unexpected. she talked to me normally in the morning as if the pain wasnt there but when i came to visit her in the night she was hooked up to the oxygen mask struggling to keep alive and i was there gazing, pitched in with surah yassin. i was with her body in the van going all the way to lumut, her place. and to the kubur as well.

looking back, im very fortunate that i had the opportunity to say goodbye and seek apologies from her. and she once told me how proud she was of how grown up i became. shell always be important to me. cant wait for the day to see her face again. i will always love and miss you nini :')

please spare some of your time to give a prayer for her. and id like to voice out my thank you to my friends for the condolences n sympathy.

just walk alone

say what?

say hello to my new game. okay not literally my new game cos ive played it before, i even represented this game for brunei :) i chose to bring cricket to a halt 2 years ago. and now, im starting to get going on it cos of some manifest reasons he he he.

waiting..

ive just had an incredibly pleasant day today and i loved every minute of it. im feelin a lot better now. i ate a lot. was drenched with sweat the whole morning, thank you brunei for being soo hott today haha. so i suppose i should prolly back up a little and spell out wats been goin in life for the past few weeks but i really dont have time for that right now. i just wna clue in something here.

hey man, screw u if u have such big issues in ur own personal life that u burst out to me and start stickin out your issues! im sick of being hushed n u being so possessive. n im sick of living my life in a different way than i want to just cos u have issues on wat i want...

okay done :) wow, i really feel wicked now that ive got a load off my mind.

happy holidays, turra!

now that im not invisible to you anymore

im actually bent out of shape at the moment. i might go berserk anytime soon but i know that no amount of keyboard misuse will do me any good. so anyway, holidays are approaching. i must be mindful on whats important to me so i guess i should take advantage of the holidays to give a hoot and immerse myself with um, something worthwhile? both my hands are weak now or my fingers are numb or both. i dont know :S

and one more thing! i survived a near death experience this morning. i accidentally swallowed my chewing gum and i choked. only god knows how murderously i fought to breathe. all i can say now is, alhamdulillah that im still alive and kicking.

WHY OH WHY?!

gtg... bye!

FTW.

last sunday night (22nd feb), i attended arifs 18th birthday dinner at le taj. what a night that was. i finally got the chance to meet up with my close friends. here are the pictures i got from wanna's facebook. theyre not in an accurate order cos i didnt have much time to spruce it all up. so anyway, enjoy the pictures!



































paalam.

kamusta kayo?

yesteday started brightly and ended awfully. lets hope todays clear and cloudless. magandang araw! amin.

so this post, to a large extent, is about my school life this year :)

ive made quite a number of new friends last year and its kind of givin me the blues that ive vamoosed from them this year, leaving me with thoughts of not being able to make new friends at first. but i was wrong in every respect. ive brought in a relatively a good deal of new friends this year. nontheless, i do still miss them most of the time, thats inevitable.

before going any further, id like to put in a good words for my readers here, based on the way things have gone for me so far, im aware now that not having some things, doesnt make me less happy either (to an extent).

now, what makes me walking on air currently are:-

1. the fact that my week is less timetabled now. ive dropped my GP and i now have 2 periods of personal study time. yay!
2. im getting a new phone either next week or early march. i have weak connection with mobile phones throughout these years. my phone was water damaged so i had to use my old phone and its seriously wearing me out. and its getting more or less like a landline, the battery's all messed up! :S
3. the juniors are coming HEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHHEHEHEH :D

so anyway, i think the part im most worried about besides getting a constant U for history since last year is.. socio AS :( ive somewhat 'wasted' my first year on socio so i havent really mastered the basics (yes, ive been studying at home). it wasnt totally my fault though, its partially or mostly i should say, was my former teacher's fault for not teaching my class desirably and properly.

so id like to end my post here by wishing one of my close friends the sketer boi, arif fikri roslan, a very blissful advanced 18th birthday. my very first 'real' friend in MD. he was my seatmate in GP last year and he is unquestionably without doubt and for sure, one of my top listed friends now though we're not in the same school anymore. and umm a very joyous 25th national day to bruneians!



gtg!

i no longer know what to say or do..

im actually ticked off right now. and no, i wont bring it up here. cos.. right now my lifes too tied up to hold onto that kind of rage. so rather than mulling it over here im just gna set aside the hassle and spend the remainder of my night for a relaxing sleep. need to do the essay on king lear tomorrow. bye!

when i first saw you,
thought you were just another girl,
but over time you became much more,
you became my whole world.

finally...

i woke up just now and.... its a sunny day! ive had enough of the torrent rain and solemn gloomy days. i mean come on, its been raining here for months now. so its sunday and i really need the sunshine haha. it kinda dashes me when if i cant go outside when i really need to play football. so i guess ill be playing football outside later. YAY!

so anyway i cant wait for the game later tonight!
1122 minutes and counting for van der sar..


and im running to you baby
you are the only one who save me
thats why ive been missin you lately
cos you make it real for me

the rest is silence

tatlo, dalawa, isa.....

ive been blogging for almost 2 years now and i just found out that this post would be the.. 48th post!!! haha. so, just for the sake of an update, im just gna post a few facts on what i did in the 90s..

- collected pokemon cards (like the others lol)
- i thought south park was hilarious even if i didnt get half the jokes
- compared football stickers in the playground with those welsh lads from my street.
- backstreet boys kali ahhhh bulehhh~
- took plastic cartoon lunch boxes to school haha
- i bought comics/magazines only for the posters
- beano and doraemon series were a must buy every week.
- gameboy was in my pocket everytime/everywhere.
- i didnt know how to snap my fingers. well in fact, i just knew how last year haha.
- and i collected action figures too. like action man, wwf, wcw, marvel, dc, bandai etc.

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!

bonne chance!

ive been casting around for something to update here but i cant really come up with anything creative. maybe im just raging with so much emotions right now. so im just gna post up the pictures of the faces that im currently missing :(

before that, id like to blurt out some of my thoughts about my sudden move from katok to MD. most of my friends were shocked cos during the holidays, i was like so excited for the new school yknow, exploring the new buildings and stuff and now, it turned out that i was one of more than 200 students who appealed back to MD. okay, i moved back for some good reasons :)

the other day, nadj and emah wrote on my pesbuk wall. it was so deep. honestly, i was flattered. i felt so important. loved it. thank you! so, im just gna copy it here and show it off to you guys ;)

zim, dont move man.. cmon whose gonna be 'O BUT WIDAH' now? huh whose gonna pretend to be all MYSTERIOUS like edward whenever he walks into the canteen? WHO! it has to be you. so u just gotta stay bro. - emah. (aint no nigga can speak like her!)

you looked like edward cullen today. when the rest of us left you WAY behind, to walk alone, to be the last one (to carry cucur pisang that burns) and youre the widah boy cmon. whos going to dangani me go history now??? cmon lah zim imagine that. we all want you to stay. i know.. this isnt going to convince you.. but imagine how we feel. just imagine. - nadj (wow nadj, so deep!! haha)

so pictures..

nad :)

so i guess thats all, turra!

still shakin' baby!

school re-opens this monday- :( and :)

i must admit that i miss going through the experience of pulling my blanket over my head to keep out from the sun’s rays and needless to say, wearing my school uniform. yknow, purple tie, black pants etc haha ok not funny, but true, though its only a stodgy facts but trust me, im serious. serious shit. Haha. oh well, holidays almost over. the great time, the state of being free from tension and anxiety is almost OVER :(

the december holiday, without a doubt, was certainly, totally, utterly the bomb. had so much fun despite spending my new year’s eve at home, chatting and did a comparatively simple and not a life threatening countdown with akmal on msn hahah. both of us didnt get to join them arif dos and the others get together for the bash at empire. seriously, we were grudging like hell! haha.

as ive mentioned in one of my posts, im so excited meeting with my friends and exploring the new school and stuff... and oh no, MY HAIRR!!! HAHAHA.... will cut it tomorrow. :( been mulling over it for quite some time. and now, i think its the right time to do so.

adios!

hello 09.

so tonight, many people would go countdown and celebrate for new year like theyre insane and get drunk. ok no, thats over haha. so cheers to a new year and another chance for us to get it right. it wont be new year's if i dont have regrets right?

well guess what? last year i made a new year's resolution to not eat indomee cos its obviously unhealthy, but i couldnt stand it so i had indomee months after that, so a couple of days later i made a new year's re-resolution to not eat indomee again. and again, i failed. so here i am now, eating indomee and waiting for this girl to go online haha.

i wont be going anywhere tonight so that means, no countdown for me :( i just wanna have fun wah! arif, dos and the others are staying over at empire. and so as nadia. i.. wanna be with them!!!

nadia is 18

ma chère nazia, que chacun de tes souhaits puissent se realisèr, je suis desolée e. joyèux anniversaire! le meilleur reste à venir. me love u long time. haha. lol i dont even know if its in a proper sentence but truly, its from the heart. happy birthday nad!

need a hearty laugh ay?

even before i started writing this post, i know its gonnna be a dull/lame/boring post. this is one of those times where i just wanna post a few bullet points for the sake of completeness haha, but no i know dad-gum good that its gonna ruin my reputation :p

i was bored the other day and i seriously had nothing to do so i tried something new on facebook. i went to the settings and changed the language to english pirate which was right at the bottom of the language to choose from. haha. if u need a hearty laugh, please please try this. everything comes up in pirate talk, its hilarious! seriously try it… its a barrel of laugh LOL. and guess what? i think im gna keep my settings as that forever. i dont really get amused easily but hell, im simply AMAZED. omgwth?

hey just in case i dont have the time/mood to update this blog before school repoens. i just wanna blurt out all my feelings here on how much i miss school. i cant wait to go to school next year. i know, the first day of school is always bittersweet. most of us are gna be sad cos of the fact that the not so long school break is over. at the same time, for me, im so excited about meeting my schoolmates again, and of course a whole new school to explore! and it also marks a new milestone for us = A-LEVELS BAYBAY!!!

and one more thing, i cant wait for the walk-a-hunt! i cant wait to win. i cant wait to see my friends there especially dos(my partner), akmal japin, arif fikri, emah, nadj and umi!!! yay, me and dos are gna win the first prize, hongkong baby! word.

okay, im off to my bunk me hearties, yo ho ho and a night of kip!

NO WAIIITTT!!!!
its aziemah ismawi's birthday today.

so ziemah.. HAPPY 17TH BIRTHDAY! and umm.. im wishing you another year of good health, happiness and.. prosperity! yeah thats the word. bah enjoy your day 30 minutes lagi tu. haha

lol good AM y'all!

hey do you know what im seeing?

This isn’t Hazim Halim, btw.

The owner of this blog FORCED me to write this post, as some kind of a punishment for not leaving messages on his chatbox. Public apology? Here zim, I’m sorry and really, from the HEART!! =P I was supposed to ask ‘yourschoolmate’ who he/she was through the chatbox on behalf of Hazim. Hey, there’s a possibility he’s a dude. So yeah, whoever you are, please do tell your name cause as you know curiousity kills.

This goes out to those who posted messages on his chatbox who didn’t use their names as well. Poor Hazim. (Serves you right though =P)

-A.

last day ay

now hey, look at this..
more pictures here



adios.