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you know, one of the hardest parts of living is, losing someone you love. its really an amazing experience, i cant even put it in words, especially when ur there contemplating him/her battling until the last breath. it touches us in a lot of ways, yet until we experience the demise of someone u love, you dont fully understand how it could touch your life.

my granma passed away last tuesday (16/6). i didnt expect shed be gone, i mean, wat i knew was it wasnt a serious ailment. it was.. unexpected. she talked to me normally in the morning as if the pain wasnt there but when i came to visit her in the night she was hooked up to an oxygen mask struggling to keep alive and i was there gazing, pitched in with surah yassin. i was with her corpse in the van going all the way to lumut, her place. and also to the kubur (graveyard).

looking back, im very fortunate that i had the opportunity to say goodbye and seek apologies from her. and she once told me how proud she was of how grown-up i became. shell always be important to me. cant wait for the day to see her face again. i will always love and miss you nini :')

please spare some of your time to give a prayer for her. and id like to voice out my thank you to my friends for the condolences n sympathy.

i remember i did make a post on uniteds white jersey before the 08/09 league started last year. now, i wna show off wat i found on google, a leaked picture of united's away kit for season 09/10 (click on the picture to enlarge).

well um, for me i think its a top notch, i love it. i wouldnt mind wearin it down to gadong or anywhere haha. cmon its a football shirt, not a designer top :)

but come to think of it, the rope on the neck or whatever u call it might become a bit of a problem for the players, i dont know, i guess due to the fact that its gna be easier for the opponent players to grab them and trying to strangle the players haha. i know i would lol. but theres actually a good point that ive came out with about the rope, rooney will be able to get his massive head through it as long as he loosens the cords off a bit lololol okay tell me if im being lame here haha.

so anyway, wish me luck for june AS, bye!

PS: we, sportivo la coruno, are the winner of MD league 2009!!!!!!

say hello to my new game. okay not literally my new game cos ive played it before, i even represented this game for brunei :) i chose to bring cricket to a halt 2 years ago. and now, im starting to get going on it cos of some manifest reasons he he he.

ive just had an incredibly pleasant day today and i loved every minute of it. im feelin a lot better now. thank you po, ur my medicine :). i ate a lot. was drenched with sweat the whole morning, thank you brunei for being soo hott today haha. so i suppose i should prolly back up a little and spell out wats been goin in life for the past few weeks but i really dont have time for that right now. i just wna clue in something here.

hey man, screw u if u have such big issues in ur own personal life that u burst out to me and start stickin out your issues! im sick of being hushed n u being so possessive. n im sick of living my life in a different way than i want to just cos u have issues on wat i want...

okay done :) wow, i really feel wicked now that ive got a load off my mind.

happy holidays, turra!

im actually bent out of shape at the moment. i might go berserk anytime soon but i know that no amount of keyboard misuse will do me any good. so anyway, holidays are approaching. i must be mindful on whats important to me so i guess i should take advantage of the holidays to actually give a hoot and immerse myself with.. :) (you know who you are). both my hands are weak now or my fingers are numb or both. i dont know :S

and one more thing! i survived a near death experience this morning. i accidentally swallowed my chewing gum and i choked. only god knows how murderously i fought to breathe. all i can say now is, alhamdulillah that im still alive and kicking.

WHY OH WHY?!

bah kan tidur... bye!

last sunday night (22nd feb), i attended arifs 18th birthday dinner at le taj. what a night that was. i finally got the chance to meet up with my close friends. here are the pictures i got from wanna's facebook. theyre not in an accurate order cos i didnt have much time to spruce it all up. so anyway, enjoy the pictures!

paalam.

yesteday started brightly and ended awfully. lets hope todays clear and cloudless. magandang araw! amin.

so this post, to a large extent, is about my school life this year :)

ive made quite a number of new friends last year and its kind of givin me the blues that ive vamoosed from them this year, leaving me with thoughts of not being able to make new friends at first. but i was wrong in every respect. ive brought in a relatively a good deal of new friends this year. but yo, i do still miss them most of the time, now thats inevitable.

before going any further, id like to put in a good words for my readers here, based on the way things have gone for me so far, im aware now that not having some things, doesnt make me less happy either (to an extent).

now, what makes me walking on air currently are:-

1. the fact that my week is less timetabled now. ive dropped my GP and i now have 2 periods of personal study time. yay!
2. im getting a new phone either next week or early march. i have weak connection with mobile phones throughout these years. my phone was water damaged so i had to use my old phone and its seriously wearing me out. and its getting more or less like a landline, the battery's all messed up! :S
3. the juniors are coming HEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHHEHEHEH :D
4. aini :)

so anyway, i think the part im most worried about besides getting a constant U for history since last year is.. socio AS :( ive somewhat 'wasted' my first year on socio so i havent really mastered the basics (yes, ive been studying at home). it wasnt totally my fault though, its partially or mostly i should say, was my former teacher's fault for not teaching my class desirably and properly.

so id like to end my post here by wishing one of my close friends the sketer boi, arif fikri roslan, a very blissful advanced 18th birthday. my very first 'real' friend in MD. he was my seatmate in GP last year and he is unquestionably without doubt and for sure, one of my top listed friends now though we're not in the same school anymore. and umm a very joyous 25th national day to bruneians!

paalam.

im actually ticked off right now. and hell no, i wont bring it up here. cos.. right now my lifes too tied up to hold onto that kind of rage. so rather than mulling it over here im just gna set aside the hassle and spend the remainder of my night for a relaxing sleep. need to do the essay on king lear tomorrow. so turra!

when i first saw you,
thought you were just another girl,
but over time you became much more,
you became my whole world.

i woke up just now and.... its a sunny day! ive had enough of the torrent rain and solemn gloomy days. i mean come on, its been raining here for months now. so its sunday and i really need the sunshine haha. it kinda dashed me when i couldnt go outside when i really needed to play football. so i guess ill be playing football outside later. YAY!

so anyway i cant wait for the game later tonight!
1122 minutes and counting for van der sar..

and im running to you baby
you are the only one who save me
thats why ive been missin you lately
cos you make it real for me

tatlo, dalawa, isa.....

ive been blogging for almost 2 years now and i just found out that this post would be the.. 48th post!!! haha. so, just for the sake of an update, im just gna post a few facts on what i did in the 90s..

- collected pokemon cards (like the others lol)
- i thought south park was hilarious even if i didnt get half the jokes
- compared football stickers in the playground "got, got, need" with those welsh lads from my street.
- backstreet boys kali ahhhh bulehhh~
- took plastic cartoon lunch boxes to school haha
- i bought comics/magazines only for the posters
- beano and doraemon series were a must buy every week.
- gameboy was in my pocket everytime/everywhere.
- i didnt know how to snap my fingers. well in fact, i just knew how last year haha.
- and i collected action figures too. like action man, wwf, wcw, marvel, dc, bandai etc.

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!

ive been casting around for something to update here but i couldnt really come up with anything creative. maybe im just raging with so much emotions right now. so im just gna post up the pictures of the faces that im currently missing :(

before that, id like to blurt out some of my thoughts about my sudden move from katok to MD. most of my friends were shocked cos during the holidays, i was like so excited for the new school yknow, exploring the new buildings and stuff and now, it turned out that i was one of more than 200 students who appealed back to MD. okay, i moved back for some good reasons :)

the other day, nadj and emah wrote on my pesbuk wall. it was so deep. honestly, i was flattered. i felt so important. loved it. thank you! so, im just gna copy it here and show it off to you guys ;)

zim, dont move man.. cmon whose gonna be 'O BUT WIDAH' now? huh whose gonna pretend to be all MYSTERIOUS like edward whenever he walks into the canteen? WHO! it has to be you. so u just gotta stay bro. - emah. (aint no nigga can speak like her!)

you looked like edward cullen today. when the rest of us left you WAY behind, to walk alone, to be the last one (to carry cucur pisang that burns) and youre the widah boy cmon. whos going to dangani me go history now??? cmon lah zim imagine that. we all want you to stay. i know.. this isnt going to convince you.. but imagine how we feel. just imagine. - nadj (wow nadj, so deep!! haha)

so pictures..

nad :)
and of course..

:)
so i guess thats all, turra!

school re-opens this monday- :( and :)

i must admit that i miss going through the experience of pulling my blanket over my head to keep out from the sun’s rays and needless to say, wearing my school uniform. yknow, purple tie, black pants etc haha ok not funny, but true, though its only a stodgy facts but trust me, im serious. serious shit. Haha. oh well, holidays almost over. the great time, the state of being free from tension and anxiety is almost OVER :(

the december holiday, without a doubt, was certainly, totally, utterly the bomb. had so much fun despite spending my new year’s eve at home, chatting and did a comparatively simple and not a life threatening countdown with akmal on msn hahah. both of us didnt get to join them arif dos and the others get together for the bash at empire. seriously, we were grudging like hell! haha.

as ive mentioned in one of my posts, im so excited meeting with my friends and exploring the new school and stuff... and oh no, MY HAIRR!!! HAHAHA

.... will cut it tomorrow. :( been mulling over it for quite some time. and now, i think its the right time to do so.

adios!

so tonight, many people would go countdown and celebrate for new year like theyre insane and get drunk as hell. ok no, thats over haha. so cheers to a new year and another chance for us to get it right. it wont be new year's if i dont have regrets right?

well guess what? last year i made a new year's resolution to not eat indomee cos its obviously unhealthy, but i couldnt stand it so i had indomee months after that, so a couple of days later i made a new year's re-resolution to not eat indomee again. and again, i failed. so here i am now, eating indomee and waiting for this girl to go online haha.

i wont be going anywhere tonight so that means, no countdown for me :( i just wanna have fun wah! arif, dos and the others are staying over at empire. and so as nadia. i.. wanna be with them!!!

ma chère nazia, que chacun de tes souhaits puissent se realisèr, je suis desolée e. joyèux anniversaire! le meilleur reste à venir. me love u long time. haha. lol i dont even know if its in a proper sentence but truly, its from the heart. happy birthday nad!

even before i start writing this post, i know its gonnna be a dull/lame/boring post. this is one of those times where i just wanna post a few bullet points for the sake of completeness haha, but i aint gonna do that cos i know dad-gum good that its gonna be a boring as hell post.

i was bored the other day and i seriously got nothing to do so i tried something new on facebook. i went to the settings and changed the language to english pirate which was right at the bottom of the language to choose from. haha. if u need a hearty laugh, please please try this. everything comes up in pirate talk, its hilarious! seriously try it… its a barrel of laugh LOL. and guess what? i think im gna keep my settings as that forever. i dont really get amused easily but hell, im simply AMAZED. omgwth?

hey just in case i dont have the time/mood to update this blog before school repoens. i just wanna blurt out all my feelings here on how much i miss school. i cant wait to go to school next year. i know, the first day of school is always bittersweet. most of us are gna be sad cos of the fact that the not so long school break is over. at the same time, for me, im so excited about meeting my schoolmates again, and of course a whole new school to explore! and it also marks a new milestone for us = A-LEVELS BAYBAY!!!

and one more thing, i cant wait for the walk-a-hunt! i cant wait to win. i cant wait to see my friends there especially dos(my partner), akmal japin, arif fikri, emah, nadj and umi!!! yay, me and dos are gna win the first prize, hongkong baby! word.

okay, im off to my bunk me hearties, yo ho ho and a night of kip!

NO WAIIITTT!!!!
its aziemah ismawi's birthday today.

so ziemah.. HAPPY 17TH BIRTHDAY! and umm.. im wishing you another year of good health, happiness and.. prosperity! yeah thats the word. bah enjoy your day 30 minutes lagi tu. haha

lol good AM y'all!

This isn’t Hazim Halim, btw.

The owner of this blog FORCED me to write this post, as some kind of a punishment for not leaving messages on his chatbox. Public apology? Here zim, I’m sorry and really, from the HEART!! =P I was supposed to ask ‘yourschoolmate’ who he/she was through the chatbox on behalf of Hazim. Hey, there’s a possibility he’s a dude. So yeah, whoever you are, please do tell your name cause as you know curiousity kills.

This goes out to those who posted messages on his chatbox who didn’t use their names as well. Poor Hazim. (Serves you right though =P)

-A.

now hey, look at this..

more pictures here

adios.

im finally able to admit that blogging isnt easy as i thought it was when i started this blog. i had dreams of blogging everyday, once upon every interesting thing that happens and apparently i did not. well, there are quite a lot of events to be blogged actually.

1. the KATOK move

- yes, i will be moving to PTE katok next year. i feel a surge of relief and a slight fellow feeling right now. relief cause most of my friends are moving too and also cos of the new buildings and stuff (YAY!). sad, because i'll be missing some of my close friends in MD (esp nabil, brahim, syara, umi and dhil) and perhaps, because of the fact that the katok school, i mean the area, is somewhat isolated. so, ummm pictures from the last day of school will be uploaded soon.

2. football fun day

- i played for Goze at football funday last sunday. we missed our first game due to some unwilling last minute circumstances shit. i assisted dos's goal in the second match and scored a goal in the third match. but sadly we didnt qualify for the knock out stage. overall it was fun despite the torrid heat lol.

3. MD interaction vs MD overdose
- i really missed playing with my no. 7 interaction jersey on, really. its been ages since i last played for them. so last saturday we played against overdose at the JKR football field. guess what? i was the goalkeeper!!!! yes, no one wanted to be the goalie so i volunteered myself. i saw taj(our captain) biting his lip (kan ketawa which he eventually did) haha screw you man! and happy belated birthday. hey, at least i played full time man haha. i ONLY conceded two goals and we won 5-2. so, i was sarcastically being complimented LOL.

4. Goze vs MD galaxy
- today we (goze) had a game against md galaxy and sadly, we lost. i mean come on, its the last day of our lives in MD and that was how we ended it? sad eh. haha. i had two golden opportunities and i flunked. i shouldve scored by blasting it with my left foot but i didnt, i used my out side right foot instead. this is totally devastating. next year with most of us moving to katok, we’re going to take each game a step at a time and try to go as far as possible. word.

5. that someone
- LOL. ive been chatting with her every night for almost a week now. shes in one of my classes in MD but we rarely talk. she's actually fun to chat with, i mean i didnt expect that, really. at first, i really thought that it was somehow and for some reason impossible to click with her but i was wrong. TOTALLY WRONG i must say. i went out with her for a drink at coffee bean today ;P

6. QUARANTINE!

- watched this movie with arif and dos last tuesday too bad, akmal coudnt make it cos the movie started late.... so, quarantine was rad. well worth the money! good script, good actors and good horror. it scared the crap out of me, really. haha it was soo intense, i dont jump very easy and i was jumping out of my seat left and right!(so as arif and dos) im already picturing watching it again with certain people and laughing my ass off at their reactions to it! lol. definitely a must see!

so i guess thats all. there might be some events that i didnt blog about. im tired actually. thank you bye bye.

PS- wannna im waiting for today's pics!!
and ddhilll, pictures of funday!!!

yo just now, i was typing the essay for my literature calmly and undisturbed. then all of a sudden t-pain clicked me on msn telling me to play a game on hotel626.com. initially, i thought it was like a porn site or something so i didnt pay any attention to him haha. then, he gave me a hard time with his constant nag lol. so i googled hotel626 and found out that it was really a game. infact it really intrigued me to play cos apparently it was dubbed as 'the scariest place on the web'. so, i played and although the loading seems to be endless, that game really racked my nerve! i nvited akmal to play too but he was using his phone. so i turned to hanif and begged him to tag along with me haha without him i can scarcely muddle through LOL.

now, aint that scary?

and...

happy 16th birthday yamin/doomslay, get a thrill out of yer day mate!
i bet you were waiting for me to post up this pic since ramadhan haha.

taylor swift - white horse. i couldnt find this song on imeem so aimini.net is my alternative. enjoy!

so, i've just finished my november AS exam. and now, im free! well not really, but yeah you get wat i mean. but, school is still on and the holiday starts roughly 2 weeks from now.

to tell the truth, life in the sixth form for me is really tough. at first it was as if youre on top of the world knowing youve left all the pesky juniors from your previous school and the word 'olevel' was no more to be spooked. the first few months were more informal and relaxed atmosphere then when it comes to the time when the end of year exam's just around the corner, you can feel the pressure and tension laid on you and you cant just escape from it easily cos after the exam, youve to go through this so called VIP day where in that day youll be BOMBED by your parents after hearing the unmerciful and pitiless comments made by each of your subject teachers. haha.

yeah so thats it i guess. cheers!

what?

OH NOOOO!!!

i got punk'd!!!!

LOL i got punk'd by a wacko (akmal japin) last wednesday haha.

it was an utmost relief for me when i went out from the auditorium after the history AS paper. the same feeling like last year when the olevel chemistry paper had ended marking the end of olevel. i got back home on cloud nine and settled all the routine works, it all went smoothly. then i went to my room, checked my phone and saw 2 missed calls and 1 message from an unknown b-mobile number.

maybe i should just copy and paste his post here. enjoy!
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It was wednesday afternoon. Tired and hunger were the only two things going through my head at that moment. The idea struck me like a bolt of lightning. Quicker than a stallion, I adjusted my body to sit up-right and then it came to me... it's time somebody got Punk'd!

I was sitting there at the front of the library when a speck of light broke out from the clouds. It was as if God gave me the sign, the sign to prank one of my pity friends. At that moment, that was when my idea of giving Hazim ( my victim) a 'fake' love letter from a 'fake' secret admirer. I dashed towards my bag to grab my memo pad. What to say? I don't know, I'm not gay so I don't know what to say to a guy. I asked Saadah what a girl would say to a guy. And she said the four most simplest words: " I think you're cute". Don't you think it's perfect? Any guy would fall for that. But where should I place it? Somewhere he could see. Yes! His bag. The perfect hideout for a perfect fake love letter. So far so good, the operation was running smoothly.

As I arrived home, I couldn't help myself, I couldn't stop laughing. But I had to keep in me so no one would suspect a thing. Now, all I need is some news. I wanted to see how the progress was going on. Did it work or not? Has he read the letter? Did he even see the letter in his bag? I had to find out one way or another. The only best way to do that was to become the character myself.

Now, what would be a better way to be a 'fake' admirer? I could dress up as one, wear a wig and dress? Nah, too obvious. I could ask a girl to pretend as one? No way man, we don't want anyone to fall in love now do we? I guess the only way is by messaging him. That way he won't be able to see or hear this 'secret admirer' of his.

I asked Daus for his number, and since Hazim doesn't know my number, I guess it was the perfect mock up. The convo went like this:

Secret admirer: Hey, did you read the note that I gave you inside your bag?

HH: Erm.. who's this?

Secret admirer: You're secret admirer... I think you're cute hehe

HH: Well... I think you're cute too

What??!! How would he know that this 'secret admirer' of his is cute? He hasn't even seen 'her' yet. what a plonka..

HH: Soo, tell me about yourself, where'd you get my number from?

Secret admirer: Ok well I'm from BE12 and I'm 17 years old, I go to MD macam you, not gonna tell you who cos me malu hehe... I got your number from Daus

HH: Ok please don't use 'me' 'you' in a malay sentence, that's a major turn off hahaha

HAHAHA... At this point I laughed so hard! Good one Zim. Let that be a lesson to all you girls, never use 'me', 'you' in a malay sentence, MAJOR turn off for the guys, unless you're cawie then I guess cawie girls meet cawie guys make a perfect match.

Secret admirer: I'm sorry, I just get nervous around you...

HH: Could you please tell me who you are? the curiosity is killing me..

Secret admirer: I can't, I'm too shy...

This point, I felt sad for Hazim. Reading his text made himself sound so desperate. And that's right where we wanted him to be! After a few hours I came online and Daus tagured me straight away. I explained to him the plan and everything. But he told me stop. He told me about Hazim's pity little life about him being stressful eventhough he just had his exam. But I couldn't care less, I stuck to the plan til the end. All of a sudden Hazim tagured me, asking whether I knew this mysterious girl and I played along like I knew nothing.

Next morning, me and Daus thought of a way to end this malicious plan. As soon as we saw him we tagured...

Daus: Hey zim, lookin' cute today

Me: Hey I just came from BE12, 'me' too malu to tagur 'you'

HAHAHA... The expression on his face was somewhat like as if an elephant sat on his face, the face you would give if a bird shat on you, and the face you would give if you saw a ghost all in one.

Hazim Halim... YOU JUST GOT PUNK'D!!
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akmal japin is seriously a major pain in the ass. thank you buddy!
and spank you daus for not being on my side. haha.